I received the most glorious presents from Leen yesterday. She sent me dinosaur cookies, a coaster from one of the bars she frequents with her friends, Orangettes, a card decorated with kittens, a kickass box of tea and an autographed Tori Amos CD and a mix cd.

All of it is amazing, but so far my favorite is the mix cd.

It's full of all the songs that make her think of me and I feel as though it helps me reconnect with her mind; something I've felt has been slipping since we've barely talked the last few weeks because of such conflicting schedules. 

I'm just swept away with such emotion. Some songs lift me up and leave this dreamy smile on my face as I'm thinking of our past together. Other songs remind me of how far away she is and my heart just bleeds....it bleeds for us.

The way my heart races when I hear I've received a letter or a package from her...
The way my breathe fills my lungs when I see her curled writing...
The way the world lightens off my shoulder as I display her smallest offerings like fine art...
The way I hoard the candy she sends me as if I'm afraid to see an empty box...

An empty box that reminds me of how my life would be without her...
An empty box that would fill me with such dread if the sweetest things in life were to disappear...

There's been no official letter in the mail to declare it so...
but I imagine this is what having a soul-mate feels like.
This is true friendship.

I miss you
<3

Come home safe and sound.